Remembering my Dad

I was offered a new position yesterday at the hospital. It would be more money and an increased set of responsibilites but it would move me away from oncology which has always been my first love. I felt so unsettled this morning as I stood in the shower and thought about whether I should take the position or not. I talked to Bud about it last night and my mom, my good friends Heather and Cindy but something felt missing. I realized what it was. I have never made a major decision in my life without talking to my Dad about it. He was always my sounding board for problems or concerns. He was great at it because he never felt the need to tell me what to do or what he would do, he would just let me talk it out and then reassure me that he knew that I would make the right decision. I miss him so much. It broke my heart to hear Maddie say something about Grandpa this morning knowing that she was talking about her Opa (Bud's dad). I gently reminded her that she was talking about Opa and she told Abby's little friend that was over "My Mama's daddy died and she really misses him." I would love just one more opportunity to wrap my arms around him and tell him how much I love him and what a great dad he always was.

Maddie and Grandpa right after his accident in July of 2005

Maddie and Grandpa in July of 2007.