It's amazing

how words can bring such joy or such sorrow. Sweet "I love you's" whispered from my husband or from my girls make my eyes light up and my heart feel warm. It can take a day that is gray and gloomy and transform it into sunshine and light.

At the same time, words can also bring pain strong enough to drop you to your knees. Pain that is almost physical it hurts so badly. The words I heard tonight were not ones that were unexpected. They were guised under a friendly tone but the warning was there nonetheless. How I wish that they didn't hurt so. I wish that the aura that I projected was really me, the "you can't hurt me, me"